So… I did a thing. Especially since it will come in handy in the new year. Plus, I shifted my focus to next month’s budget so I can pretend I don’t have money. Really trying to do the “if I don’t know about it then it ain’t real” technique with my finances. Kinda like how… Read More Rant 033
My horrible emotions this past few days has made me gain 5 lbs. I’m close to not caring the rest of the month. But I can’t do that to myself. I gotta at least go from 244 to 240 by December 31th. At least close to 240. I’m not mad or disappointed, because I know… Read More Health 039
As I’m going through recovery I’m also getting better at accepting help. But what really makes me feel a sense of joy is that I noticed that for certain moments I’m reacting completely different than how the rest of my family would react. It brings me peace that there’s another part of me that is… Read More Rant 031
10 days post Laparoscopic Hysterectomy My sleep has slowly been getting better. For example I finally am well enough to comfortably sleep on my side. I had slowly transitioned from sleeping on my couch for the first 4 to 5 nights after returning from the hospital. Eventually was able to sleep on my bed, still… Read More Health 037
For someone who talks a lot online, especially in written format, I am dogshit terrified of doing so in video format. For goodness sake, I have made accounts just to make vlog like post. But my dumb truck of a behind thinks I’m gonna fuck up because I’m not interesting or with how I don’t… Read More Rant 030
This is why I’m glad I was finally able to seek physical therapy for my back and pelvic floor. Since it help me give me a baseline on how I am and where I can improve. It’s one thing to try to learn all this on my own, and I’m very knowledgeable about a lot… Read More Health Rant 036
I got to admit, I’m kinda surprised that after 6 days since surgery the surgery sights aren’t as bruised and swollen I thought they’ll be. Sure, I’m extremely grateful. Especially when I know my abdomen area heals better than the rest of my body. But I can’t deny I’m shocked with how everything is looking.… Read More Health 034
Just wanna vent. As much as I want to buy a new mattress next month, it’ll be super unreasonable for me to do so. Sure, my current mattress is pretty sunken in, but I can manage a little longer. But that’s not why it’ll be unreasonable to get a new mattress. I currently won’t be… Read More Health 033
I already knew I was going to depend on someone to help me while healing from surgery but it’s so frustrating. Especially when it comes to chores that I’m very particular with. It’s more on the sense that my dishes aren’t being washed the way I like. For example there’s still pieces of food and… Read More Rant 029
Come home after surgery and all my knowledge of being mindful and calm kicked itself out the window. It took me practically 3 days to remember who tf I was and all my skills. Like SERIOUSLY! All my planning and getting myself together mentally went straight out the window the moment I got home. I… Read More Health 032
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