A part of me wants to start something but the other part is calling it a waste of time. Like trying to wait for everything to line up but then when I get there will I still make excuses that it’s not perfect enough. One of those things of being a traumatized perfectionist. I can’t… Read More Trauma Recovery 003
This is why I’m glad I was finally able to seek physical therapy for my back and pelvic floor. Since it help me give me a baseline on how I am and where I can improve. It’s one thing to try to learn all this on my own, and I’m very knowledgeable about a lot… Read More Health Rant 036
Come home after surgery and all my knowledge of being mindful and calm kicked itself out the window. It took me practically 3 days to remember who tf I was and all my skills. Like SERIOUSLY! All my planning and getting myself together mentally went straight out the window the moment I got home. I… Read More Health 032
I’m gonna chalk it up to my digestive system has been out of wack and I been trying to get it better before surgery. Because how the hell did I go from 245 lbs to 243.6 lbs in 3 days. Like I said, my digestive system been off and I’m trying to get back into… Read More Physical Health 030
Just finished a 15 minute strength workout and I noticed something. When I was attempting to do some leg lifts, I felt out of control. Like it was easy to breathe and keep form, but something about it didn’t feel right. Almost like I was too relaxed and lacked focus. When dealing with weights and… Read More Physical Health 024
Been dealing with stomach issues for a couple of days. This as been affecting my bathroom habits, and even the number on the scale. Like my weight has gone up a full pound in one week. Even though I know I been doing great in my active levels. So, the only thing that is likely… Read More Health 023
I definitely needed a rest day. Been having a rough cough, like the itchy throat dry cough one gets during allergy season. But you would think that me drinking tea, drinking water, and taking cough drops would help. Nope. So I really need to take a full on rest day, probably at least 2. And… Read More Health 022
Things I wish I said yesterday during the last day of this round of mindfulness group I’m grateful to have all my 5 senses. To be able to see the world around with the bonus of color and depth. When some people are either born blind or become blind later on. To be able to… Read More Gratitude
Day 2 on sticking to a strict diet is going pretty well. ☺️Since not tracking my exercise progress made it more easy to deal with food. Since I’m being told to eat more because I burned calories, which made the goal harder to achieve. And when the goal became harder to achieve it made it… Read More Health Journey 013
Some reason I feel my first aid supplies is lacking. Along with over the counter medicine. … OTC: pain relief (off brand Tylenol), nasel relief (allergy nose pump), theraflu. First aid: anitiseptic cleaning spray, 3% hydrogen peroxide (spray), 70% isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol), ice cold analgesic gel (menthol 1.25%)[like iceyhot but not], 50 spf sunscreen,… Read More Rant 018
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