I definitely needed a rest day. Been having a rough cough, like the itchy throat dry cough one gets during allergy season. But you would think that me drinking tea, drinking water, and taking cough drops would help. Nope.

So I really need to take a full on rest day, probably at least 2. And I gotta make sure I don’t workout AT ALL for these 2 days. Even though I wanna go for a walk and don’t want to lose a day of exercise.

But I truly think I overdid it. Like I been going strong for roughly 3 to 4 weeks. And every time I try to take a rest day, I just end up working out in some form or another. So currently I’m trying to completely relax and ignore the anxiety that I’m not doing anything.

Should have really taken note that I needed a full recovery weekend with how exhausted I been feeling. Not my usual fatigue, where I can easily deal with. This one had different symptoms that came with it.

From my shoulders having a tight pain with any sudden discomfort. Having to be extra cautious when going to bed, because sometimes it feels like imma dislocate my shoulder. Then there’s a type of soreness I haven’t felt in years.

So yeah. I gotta admit I overworked myself a little too hard. Sure, my goal was to work as hard as I could before my surgery so I didn’t feel guilty not being able to do anything while healing. But it’s looking like if I keep it up I’ll be sick or in a condition where my surgery will have to be pushed back, for me to be able to get better.

This is difficult to accept. I finally found something to replace all the shit I gone through in my upbringing. But it’s causing the same exact issues. From extreme fatigue to full body pains. The only difference is my eating has improved.

Yet if I keep this help it won’t matter how much better my diet is. I can’t diet or workout if my body shuts down on me. I really did go from one extreme to another without giving myself time and patience to adjust to a healthier format.

I’ll get better at this. At least I’m also recording my mistakes and progress, so I can see what and where I can improve. Plus, my mental health is always improving, which is super important in keeping me motivated to improve my physical health.