Last night I did something. It wasn’t a good thing. I kept going back for snacks, from chips to candy to chocolate. I thought I had it under control, but I clearly don’t.

So I decided once I finished these chips and chocolate I’m no longer buying any of them. Same goes for candy.

I have an addictive personality and OCD. So I need to cut out all types of addictions to be able to improve. I addicted to sugar and salt.

I have managed to cut back on salt and sugar in a lot of places. But the moment I have “treats” in my presence I have a hard time getting a grip on my OCD.

It’s exhausting to try to control myself around snacks. Especially with my binge cycles that I have. After I spoke with a nutritionist yesterday about my pre-diabetes, I finally saw my eating pattern for what it is.

Even when I have starvation episodes, it tends to lead to heavy binging. And I told her how I’m very happy I found an app that reminds me to eat. Especially during my starving periods.

But since I hate being wasteful, I’m gonna finish these snacks. The candy I had put away and gonna do my best to hold off until Hallows Eve so I can give to trick-o-treaters. Besides that, I’m not only ashamed of myself but also very proud. I’m admitting I have a problem and I’m holding myself accountable.

And by sharing online I have more of a reason to continue improving. Because I want to show off my hard work. Especially when it’s something I struggle with.