I’m still shocked, embarrassed, and giggling at myself for admitting to my case manager my type. Shocked that I said it out loud. Embarrassed because the way I said it. Giggling over the whole situation. She did comment how I’ll most likely meet my type in the gym. But I mentioned I rather meet them… Read More Rant 028
So… decided to take out the clothes from my closet for some unknown reason. I just did it. Now I’m trying to figure out what the he’ll am I going to do with them. Which some I was saving until I lost weight, since those tend to fit currently a bit tight. There’s also some… Read More Rant 027
What does it mean to be a kid at heart? To still be curious about the world around you, and finding joy in the most simplest of things. Like spotting a worm on the sidewalk after a rainy day. Seeing rainbows in just about any pool of water. Getting excited about something that other people… Read More Curiosity and Hope
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
Some reason I feel my first aid supplies is lacking. Along with over the counter medicine. … OTC: pain relief (off brand Tylenol), nasel relief (allergy nose pump), theraflu. First aid: anitiseptic cleaning spray, 3% hydrogen peroxide (spray), 70% isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol), ice cold analgesic gel (menthol 1.25%)[like iceyhot but not], 50 spf sunscreen,… Read More Rant 018
Don’t laugh too hard but I really realized that I can write in MY OWN books. Like books that I brought. At that, it wasn’t until college that I learned I can customize my sketchbook and anything that I owned. lol It feels nice not to have someone scream and shame me for not keeping… Read More Rant 015
Super excited. Especially since I’m preparing to open up art commissions, along with setting up my shop. Right now I’m just editing my Terms of Service so that I’m transparent on how I operate. This way there’s no surprises or confusions. Especially taking into account my living arrangements that requires me to give a report… Read More Rant 014
There are times where being self aware makes me look at my family in a way that has me questioning how the hell did I survive “that”. The same family who didn’t normalize speaking about hospital, protective sex, or anything that has to do with physical health and self care. Along with being so emotionally… Read More Rant 013
I sometimes wonder why I’m always in the wrong. From the why I feel, my thoughts, my beliefs, my needs, just about anything that has to do with me. Today I just feel so inadequate and if I even dare try to express that why someone things always go one or two ways. One (typically… Read More Rant 010
So as I’m sitting around today a little thought popped up. I wonder if I would do any justice if I were to write all my antithetical beliefs and thoughts about topics I feel strongly about, even though many of the topics are things I’ve observed and struggled to justify if I even can speak… Read More Rant 008
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