What does it mean to be a kid at heart? To still be curious about the world around you, and finding joy in the most simplest of things. Like spotting a worm on the sidewalk after a rainy day. Seeing rainbows in just about any pool of water. Getting excited about something that other people… Read More Curiosity and Hope
Day 2 on sticking to a strict diet is going pretty well. ☺️Since not tracking my exercise progress made it more easy to deal with food. Since I’m being told to eat more because I burned calories, which made the goal harder to achieve. And when the goal became harder to achieve it made it… Read More Health Journey 013
I feel like absolute shit today. Especially after everything I ate today. Like I ate heavy meals and it’s really affecting me.I been trying to balance out at least 1 huge meal, and about 2 snacks between meals so I can have light meals.This way my calorie intake evens out so I can manage my… Read More Physical Health 008
Last night I did something. It wasn’t a good thing. I kept going back for snacks, from chips to candy to chocolate. I thought I had it under control, but I clearly don’t. So I decided once I finished these chips and chocolate I’m no longer buying any of them. Same goes for candy. I… Read More Physical Health 006
Have you ever forgot you were eating and stopped, then have a mini panic attack when you realize you were eating so you try to finish? Or have you tried eating your food as fast as possible so you can get over the fact you have to eat? Like it’s weird. On a good day… Read More Rant 026
I think I ate 3 cans of beans this month, which is a lot for me. I’m very proud of myself. Especially since beans was a common food for dinner growing up. Maybe I’m eating more types of foods probably due to me having a list on my fridge of all the foods I currently… Read More Rant 022
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
Some reason I feel my first aid supplies is lacking. Along with over the counter medicine. … OTC: pain relief (off brand Tylenol), nasel relief (allergy nose pump), theraflu. First aid: anitiseptic cleaning spray, 3% hydrogen peroxide (spray), 70% isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol), ice cold analgesic gel (menthol 1.25%)[like iceyhot but not], 50 spf sunscreen,… Read More Rant 018
You have left this worldLeaving me powerlessNo amount of begging or pleadingWill ever bring you back But what am I to doFor everywhere I turnTraces of you are still thereEvery taskIs not the same I can’t breathe or thinkWithout the crushing painStinking me lower to the ground I just want toRun from this realityAnd into… Read More Grief of a Love One
Some reason I’m having an imaginary conversation that could happen during my annual gyn exam and it’s with my surgeon. The conversation goes into me telling him my excitement and how gender euphoric it’s going to be. Along with how I’m trying to calm my anxiety. … Saying how regardless of my gender I would… Read More Rant 017
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