I got to admit, I’m kinda surprised that after 6 days since surgery the surgery sights aren’t as bruised and swollen I thought they’ll be. Sure, I’m extremely grateful. Especially when I know my abdomen area heals better than the rest of my body. But I can’t deny I’m shocked with how everything is looking.… Read More Health 034
Just wanna vent. As much as I want to buy a new mattress next month, it’ll be super unreasonable for me to do so. Sure, my current mattress is pretty sunken in, but I can manage a little longer. But that’s not why it’ll be unreasonable to get a new mattress. I currently won’t be… Read More Health 033
Come home after surgery and all my knowledge of being mindful and calm kicked itself out the window. It took me practically 3 days to remember who tf I was and all my skills. Like SERIOUSLY! All my planning and getting myself together mentally went straight out the window the moment I got home. I… Read More Health 032
I’m gonna chalk it up to my digestive system has been out of wack and I been trying to get it better before surgery. Because how the hell did I go from 245 lbs to 243.6 lbs in 3 days. Like I said, my digestive system been off and I’m trying to get back into… Read More Physical Health 030
So… randomly I looked at the sizing of my shirts as I put them to wash, and I learned something amazing. My everyday shirts I wore for basically a year, big enough to fit comfortably but enough extra fabric it looked bigger than me, are all 3XL (and are men shirts). My Lane Bryant long… Read More Health 029
I’m still shocked, embarrassed, and giggling at myself for admitting to my case manager my type. Shocked that I said it out loud. Embarrassed because the way I said it. Giggling over the whole situation. She did comment how I’ll most likely meet my type in the gym. But I mentioned I rather meet them… Read More Rant 028
Did I eat more than 1500 calories today? Yes.Was I still in my calorie deficit? Also yes.Do I regret overdoing it? Nope.Dinner was filling and hit the spot. Sure, I went overboard with the chicken but fuck it. Besides, today re-enforced what I needed to do. From the fact I needed heavy meals so I… Read More Health 025
Just finished a 15 minute strength workout and I noticed something. When I was attempting to do some leg lifts, I felt out of control. Like it was easy to breathe and keep form, but something about it didn’t feel right. Almost like I was too relaxed and lacked focus. When dealing with weights and… Read More Physical Health 024
Been dealing with stomach issues for a couple of days. This as been affecting my bathroom habits, and even the number on the scale. Like my weight has gone up a full pound in one week. Even though I know I been doing great in my active levels. So, the only thing that is likely… Read More Health 023
I definitely needed a rest day. Been having a rough cough, like the itchy throat dry cough one gets during allergy season. But you would think that me drinking tea, drinking water, and taking cough drops would help. Nope. So I really need to take a full on rest day, probably at least 2. And… Read More Health 022
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