Today is fun, since it’s grocery shopping day. A lot of this going to sound weird and awkward because it’s my post on facebook, as I’m going through running errands. … From my the bottom of my right knee down to the bridge of my foot it fucking hurts! But gotta push through the pain.… Read More Health 020
So… decided to take out the clothes from my closet for some unknown reason. I just did it. Now I’m trying to figure out what the he’ll am I going to do with them. Which some I was saving until I lost weight, since those tend to fit currently a bit tight. There’s also some… Read More Rant 027
So as of late, at least since I announced I wasn’t gonna add my workouts to the calorie tracker, I been aiming for a 1,500 calorie deficit. The way I been working at it is my 3 big meals have to be no more than 300 calories each. This is taking into account sauces. While… Read More Health 017
As always, brain had a thought. Simply why am I allergic to bananas and not plantains. Of course I started to figure it’s because plantains have to be cooked. Anyway, looking up some of the allergy things a person who’s allergic to bananas should avoid it became confusing. The basic list is:“avocadoes, kiwi, carrots, celery,… Read More Health 016
So I had a fun thought this morning that I kept thinking about. So imma share it with you. … Since I’m gonna be put to sleep for my surgery I been absolutely terrified of the idea of such a thing. And as time progresses and I’m getting closer I’m slowly getting my brain ready… Read More Physical Health 014
Day 2 on sticking to a strict diet is going pretty well. ☺️Since not tracking my exercise progress made it more easy to deal with food. Since I’m being told to eat more because I burned calories, which made the goal harder to achieve. And when the goal became harder to achieve it made it… Read More Health Journey 013
I think quitting alcohol is much easier than overcoming my ED. In the sense that it’s easy to avoid alcohol when I’m broke, so it’s become easier to rationalize that I don’t need it. But when it comes to my ED I have to deal with food. Food is an important thing that is use… Read More Physical Health 012
I feel like absolute shit today. Especially after everything I ate today. Like I ate heavy meals and it’s really affecting me.I been trying to balance out at least 1 huge meal, and about 2 snacks between meals so I can have light meals.This way my calorie intake evens out so I can manage my… Read More Physical Health 008
Just had a realization. The people who told me my whole life on how I should spend my money are the very ones who has money issues. From debt to budgeting. And are extreme shopaholics. Like they rather buy high end items at expensive prices. Yet I was shamed for spending my own money on… Read More Rant 021
After a night that had me spiraling to where my “unaliving” thoughts were strong, I’m slowly recovering today. Last night was so bad that I didn’t take my mood stabilizer (meds) because not only did I forget but also I have a very horrible history with medication. And today I slowly been unraveling a few… Read More Rant 019
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